A Mother's Cry

There have been few times (thankfully) that I have had to wrestle with God and plead for the lives of my children or yet to be children.

Pleading and crying out to God with the pain of infertility that brought me to my knees and the lowest I had ever been.

Praying with 100's that our first child would get to be ours and come home before Christmas! It was a long 6 wks! But he did!

Pleading and crying out to God, unitl I fell into bed in a heap, for the child that was to be ours, was put into my arms.

Praying for complete protection during a three year finalization wait for our third baby!

Pleading with God for one more day to keep our triplets in my womb...to cook for another day and to not be born at 26 weeks....again at 28 weeks and then each day after that until 33.3 wks!

And that's just to get to become parents.

We all know the worries and concerns that overcome us through their birth, adoptions, first days, first years and beyond.

But as I sit here....I have never felt such pain as to watch a child struggle with life, trying to find their way, choosing to make bad choices, and choosing to be the farthest distance away from us as possible, but yet longing to be here. My heart is breaking to see this child struggle so!

As the Title of our Blog says and my profile...It is our crazy journey thru life. One that God chose. One that I am so grateful for. I know we were chosen to be our kiddos parents, even though we question if we're fit at times like this. I know each one was chosen by God to be our child. So, we get this privilege of crying our hearts out to God for them. Not sleeping because they're not home yet.  Wrestling with God on their behalf. Praying for their protection. That God will fill in the Gap that is missing in their hearts. That God will be standing with them at the crossroads of life and directing them. That when they are away from home that their hearts will be wrestling with God to work things out. That they will hear God's voice and not all the others. That they will hear and see the truth. And just to make it public...."satan, you CAN NOT have my children. Not one of them! They were chosen by God to be in this family. They have asked you to be their Savior, no matter where they are right now and that is the truth! Praise God!

So my friends I'm asking for prayer for our family. You can pray for the things mentioned above. We need God's direction and wisdom in parenting each child. We need God's peace and help. We need protection for the whole family as we all are affected in some way by this drama.  I am asking for you to pray for my child's soul, for his life, for his heart right now!
Thanks!